2011 neww friends new life

isi hati ku .

aku baru sedar yang aku ni mudah ditipu , di hina , di fitnah dan di perbodohkan.


kenapa mesti korang buat aku macam ni . aku tak tau apa niat korang sebenarnya tpi at lest jgn lah buat aku mcm ni .  : ( sumpah aku sedih , kecewa , and terkilan dgn korang. 


kau 24 august 2009 !


kau hina perasaan aku , kau buat aku sayang kau, padahal masa tu kau hanya nak seseorang untuk berteman. kenapa perangai kau seteruk ni . aku sayang kau , aku sanggup bagi apa yang kau mintak tpi KAU ! hanya jawap . kita tak sependapat . kita break , nanti kalau dah ok . kita sambung balik . apa alasan ni wyh! nampak sangat kau main main dgn perasaan aku . kau kata aku tk paham kau . ye memang aku try untuk memahami kau , tetapi kau yang langsung tk ada masa untuk aku . tapi klu dgn org lain . kau ada je masa. knp kau buat aku macam ni ! aku buta dengan ketulusan hati kau . aku buta dengan keikhlasan hati kau. tpi sebenarnya KAU yang buta! insyallah allah akn membalas apa yang kau telah lakukan kepada aku . kau akan memohon untuk kembali kepada aku . dan pada masa itu kau akan sedar yang kau menyesal tinggal aku dengan cara yang teruk.


kau KAWAN .


dulu kita banyak luangkan masa bersama sama , kau share masalah dengan aku , bila kau perlukan teman . kau cari aku . tpi sekarang kau dah tk perlukan aku , sebab kau dah ada dia , aku gembira :) tpi bila aku sedar . aku terasa seperti baru kehilangan seorang kawan yang selalu berada disisi ku . tak mengapa aku masih boleh tengok senyuman manis , muka comel dan gelakkan dia . terima kasih kawan <3 kau jaga lah SIdia itu elok elok . tpi aku telah berjanji dengan teman lelaki dia yang aku akan menjaga dia . so insyallah aku akan tunai kan. 

27 december 2010 =__=

biee , i nak break im sorry :(

he ask for a break , i still dont get it why! i cant let you go dear, i know you have alot of problem , if you let me know, i will try my best to help you . i miss you so much ! i miss all thing that we had done together . and now im so heart broken and you go . i love you . 27 december 2010. IZZAT FARHAN <3

Izzat Farhan

i know him from my first year in high school back on 2007. he's kinda cute and handsome , :P but i anggap dia mcm kawan sahaja, n tau tau i pindah school , dia try search me and form 2 i back to him , ktrg couple, right after 14 FEBRUARY 2008 <3 on 15 FEBRUARY 2008 we're in a relationship. i came to my old school just to give him a present his birthday present, 19 FEBRUARY 2008 .

then , we break up :(

2009
In the middle of the year , he ask his sister to ask for my phone number , so i give. i wasnt though that he will call me. well at that time he was in a relationship with other girl , so i dont mind. we met at skatepark at sec 13 , we have a long talk . hahah i miss him very much ! :( only god know. that night we have a talk on a phone i call him . so we talk and suddenly he said he ask for break to the girl because that girl ignore him . so he said " i tak kesah pon break dgn dia sebab i dapat you " . i was totally shock ,blashing and excited! he ask me to be his girlfriend. so i say YES <3 . 

but then we breakup :(

2010
his sister told me that he was not coming home for such a long time, but i dont have his phone number. so i dont know how and where to look for him , i did worried about him! :( im scare if anything happend to him. then i dont know what happened to him all i did is pray . 

27.12.2010
i got a miscall from stranger . so i text and ask "who are you ?"
then no respone , i ignore . then after i had finish my cricket training , i called that number.
and guess what! 

Me : hello , who are u?
Stranger : hello hi , im *&^$&*(@&*
Me : huh, who? i cant hear you clearly
Stranger : hi im IZZAT FARHAN . 
( i was shock and i was stand still , SUMPAH terkejut and HAPPY! dengan suara dia dh lain , i mean
suara baru bangun tdo :P hehe )
Me : hey, OMG you! i miss you like HELL , never though you will call me ! haha
Him : i pon miss you la ALIAH , you kat mne? bising nya . 
Me : i kt tpi jalan otw nak prg gaint kat kinrara bru lps training .

then my credit habis. THANK god time tu dah sampai gaint . trus pergi top up tau!
then dia msg .
"aliah :D i miss you . "
hehe i pon rep . 
then i pon ckp lah yg i ada terserempak dgn dia kat sunway but time tu i segan nak tegur dia , so i lari :P hehe
dia pula mrh i sbb tk tgr dia, dia kata " sumpah i nak jumpa you , i miss you so much! , i pon ckp sorry , then dia tanya bila nak jumpa . i pon ckp laa bila i free,kita hang ok . then dia ckp "eyh aliah i pernah kiss you tak :P " , hahah i pon ckp laa " tak pernah . lepas tu dia ckp mcm ni  "oh yekee ? i nak try kissing dengan you , tak pernah dapat lagi doee :) then i jawap  "i aint give a kiss if your not my man . bkn apa just i mmg tak boleh ". dia jawap " okay , so i have to be your man laa to get that kiss of yours ? i was " haha i think , yes  :D" lastly dia ckp mcm ni " the question is , would you be my woman " sumpah i terkejut. apa lagi i terus lah call dia . heheh n yes secara official 27.12.2010 im yours Izzat Farhan .

30.12.2010
i have bbq . i invite him . he bring his BFF , haha alfian i guess. sorry i dont know how to spell ur name.
i spent a lot of time with him. all night long. i introducing him to my family, i think my mom like's him <3 weee :P 
so that night was THE BEST NIGHT eveer! 

dear biee <3 
i love you so much , my life is empty if you were not around. i need you so much , 
ingat janji you dekat i biee , i pegang janji you , and i will do my best to be you BEST ever GIRL. thank you sebab masih bagi i peluang to be with you . promise me that you will be with me forever .  

Natasha Izany

org ini , aku syg dia. dia paham aku . hehehe sengal mcm aku gak . gila mcm aku , aku tak tau
klu dia ni tak teman aku , mesti aku gila GILA , haha dia selalu tolong aku time susah and senang , aku bersyukur gila! eyhh SHA igt tau janji kita hehehe after spm kita TERUS cari ok :D iloveyou laa kawan!

empty

he lays me lie, lie lie lie ,
i dont understand why you must lie .
lie is not a part of the sollution ,
lie will make a our life dificult .

i miss all our sweet , romance , and happy time.
you leave my feet off the ground you spin me around.
you make me crazier crazier .

1 november 2010

just a memory.

 i hope he got the happiness from this girl , i should forget about you , but thn sudden i saw alif satar sing cukup indah , his face totally same as your cute face. sometime i blame myself because of my attitude , JELES. i know you need life. but i actually try to give you a life , i try to accept you in my life, and yerh one night i had called you and we have a long talk , he calmed me and said he love me very much , and one last word i told him is " no matter how hard we try to separate but the end we never forget each other , its like magnet , you in me , and i'm in you " . you gave me a hope . and i love you so much. and the next day , i find out you with her. how could u do this to me. now i know you will never laeve her cos i know you . i know you well .